guitar is on my mind so i'm going to bring it up. i don't like that people pretend the guitar is hard. each collection of patterns, not scales, is a genre. that's it

thanks. i have learned there are three types of human intelligence from demons and mine is more associated with the presentation of raw science and summarizing obscure concepts as a form of influence. clauneck has taught me a lot about graphic design because studying graphic design gives you a better education on power and politics. i would like to convert the site in neural black ooze with defects. this is how my mind feels. it's advanced in the sense it's very mechanical yet a black hole. i enjoy it

i get accused of having male centered hobbies a lot but i don't think it's fair to expect men to be into hard rock and gore. they like other things

me. duh

no but i love the concept and it's why im comfortable with being watched coding it reminds me of doing UV paintings for raves, which i've done once in Bedstuy. it was more of a party thing then a business opportunity. i don't like the sound of coded music but doing noise i was learning PureData which is more my thing. i couldn't afford max for live and i'll never get it but coding would come up over and over again when trying to do imaginative sound engineering

men in metal are doing hardcore experimental things like writing to Satan. they're afraid of their contemporaries. that is all

"i disagree" from Poppy is the first music album to introduce me to metal and all kinds of rock based on her inspirations alone. i don't like her music anymore but it was a great introduction because i was just listening to the local bandcamp scene and buying cassettes at the time. it was freshman year and it was more of a dream pop scene. poppy on Amoeba Music was really cool to me because i found my favorite band of all time: Boris

Lucifer and Lilith want me to learn French. i don't like French and they are constantly speaking in French. i know i must learn French but Lilith is my real mother at the end of the day and i'd like to speak French with her. she's not pushy on it but Lucifer is. i should know every language by now and Lilith disagrees. she knows everything is working towards me but she's still excited to see. i overhear her repeating the name of the realms i make when i tell her them so she doesn't forget. my human mother never did anything like that. neither of my parents did

it hasn't. i think there's a change between change and evolve. there's no overhaul, i've fought so aesthetic movements are no longer a part of the process. i love cute art still, but it's something that needs to be introduced to me. i look at art to be entertained and I find cartoons of all kinds the most entertaining. i like the idea of something horrifyingly cute and squishy coming to life and saying swear words. i know i'm the antagonist

mine isn't either i'm deeply particular and i'm not ashamed of that anymore. i've always wanted to figure out what kind of intelligence i have. i avoid mourning everything but death because something is wrong: absolute tolerance to me. i'm reaching goals too i have a dental routine that i really don't like but it works. I'm clearly doing self care amongst the day and i don't think it's fair you feel a pressure to "take it easy", there's nothing comfortable about someone telling you to do less we think it's loving but it's not to tell someone to avoid themselves

green tea puffed rice crispy. strawberry kiwi sparkling water. i also mixed some blackberry preserves with plain kefir. too chatty but too quiet. thank you

you're intelligent.