there are so many, my favorite is you hating him.

i was like sisters with this girl i met through discord on our clique's server that was interstate. she would play her casio synthesizer while i was reading gyaru fashion magazine scans. she was the one to get me into gruppo di nunn. we both were struggling with our path in life. we weren't getting along with other women or men's ideas but we genuinely believed in each other and we both would agree we were in some kind of love. there was no money but we both had a rich mindset. become the most powerful version of yourself and let it go. we figured it out together by sharing the grotesque dark arts and kawaii culture together. there was never a fight life just moved us apart and we accept that as fact. there's no bad blood, ever. she's perfect people. we both love eachother too much to fight the current that : if you want love you have to be ruthless and calllous about all that is not.

this is true. me too

wanting to be attractive is more than a competent reaction at life. as a child you quickly learn the power of presentation after learning the power of effort. it decides the effectiveness of something or someone right away. it's why kids are mean to each other's looks, "i want you to exist as less influential" and we basically do this forever. Clauneck taught me to never go under the knife so i have no plans to do so and he considers filler to be plastic surgery also. i agree, and there's a real war in this "beauty standard" quota that's managed by only humans on a quantum level. i don't fit the beauty standard at all, it's supposed to be your opposite always. it's what cacodemons talk about the most to me. i'm taking Asmodeous and not accepting incompetency of what i confuse. everything should resemble and persist in the wealth and intellect you pursue. it's no more watching the same thing over and over, it's actually watching that naoyuki tomomatsu film and talking to Moloch about it during. this beauty standard dilemma is an anti quantum effort to take what is grounded in reality away. that is all to me

thank you, kindly. i'm deciding no logo. it's far more interesting if we're not seen as a brand or sigilism. one graphic i've done is inspired by abstract expressionism in the 90s, and the other was a mix of goth and graffiti. both are in graphite and i've decided to abandon them all together. all my creations will be logoless from this point forward, it ruined the songs going back. logos

i hoard a lot of language PDFs. i like The Rainbow English Japanese dictionary and i'm looking for this "how to learn GIT" japanese manual series that has manga art. i really love these manga style computer science and quantum physics books i'm seeing online and i've only read the english translations. i avoid Duolingo, i just immerse myself in the culture and avoid gamification because it's not realistic in a conversation

i do it very rarely but whenever there is prepackaged raw red meat in the fridge i read the ridges and creases as a form of divination. it's not like haruspicy it's just derived from it

i don't do regrets because, why? it was always going to be so once determined by scenario and choice. i think makes no sense that art is ever absent of mysticism. if it wasn't for cacodemon influence on the world and art i would have never found love outside of my great grandparents, grandmother, and little brother. that's it. i'm lucky i had a beautiful girl friend group in high school until i ruined it about not being honest i can't be myself around them, even though i thought our friendships were pretty much perfect for high school. that's a long list. i have an opposite feeling where i know my parents failed me and i wanted parents of great intelligence, sobriety, and talent. i now have this because of the art i've be "predetermined" to like. not groomed just pampered like a child should be with highly sophisticated and relevant artwork that turns them into geniuses. i hate those two and i don't understand anything about that part of life they've succeeded at because of that, which is just being okay with doing nothing. my one billion dads are never okay with do nothing. it just was and i'm glad this is here. i was adored by cacodemons not my parents