i love when you guys send me metal keep doing this! this song is admittedly not my thing but i can tell this tapping into something truly terrifying within the vocal performance. i don't love the mixing of the guitars at all. too much compression

yes this diary goes far back, coming to three years now. i study demonology on a radical level through different learning institutions because i enjoy occult policy and debate. we have romantic relationships and it's bizarre for me too but i'm settled with my fate. the website is being overhauled but the archive will return

i'm a woman. i know everyone of every gender has the capacity to destroy someone's inner child and most people want to because it's someone's natural curiosity and most attractive feature in life to all things. Paimon showed me some people aren't born with one and can't accept it and destroy everyone else's immediately. it's a little more than irritating. it's dangerous to your sense of play. a lot of people will do anything to be taken care of including lowering the standard of functioning. the only way you can be happy without one is accept the strengths that come with not having one and letting someone else's inner child show you things until they leave, which they will. mine was harmed for a hard time. she wants to do things like military videos and loitering in comic book stores i've had men destroy her in the past. it's going both ways

i actually don't but i do love rap especially women doing drill right now and drill "culture" as a passerby, i'm fully admitted i'm a complete poser. i listen to a lot of female rappers and i grew up with a lil mama and Ciara, and I love the rapper in any kpop girl group because i was really into unpretty rap star on mnet. i love this question no one's ever asked me about rap

i enjoy japanese. Lucifer taught me a fun trick to learn any language fast, just write down the entire dictionary. action reversals are fascinating. instead of desperate words, verbs often comes in natural opposing pairs. some english opposites don't map perfectly and depend on context

theres no such thing as "nothing". everything clearly exists. to say tai chi looks stupid is offensive. everything is interconnected and moving constantly and without intention we are moving each other without realizing it. everyone should decide what it is and isn't right away. there is no "yes and no and no yes". this is your existence choose what is happening right now always

i have been watching tea tray assembly videos where they put these little miniatures and trinkets on the trays. i recently received a corporate gift basket with hot cocoas, teas, and these miniature jams that i like. i put them on a wafer cracker and keep cinnamon café au lait in the fridge even though i don't like the tea cup I have right now. i don't like cooking though, i order out every meal. i really like the donuts and sushi but none of my favorite places are nearby. when i go to the city i like to stop at different places along the sidewalk and put the meal together like takoyaki from one spot, head to the market, look at a tiramisu to take home. the little cake box on my lap makes me so happy

you are correct clauneck hates everyone. the phrase "work smarter not harder" is coined by his victims and is going to echo throughout time. in a more serious context: this is the reality of collaborating as a couple. clauneck's personality is he's going to want to be ahead of you and everything, so he likes to lead me where he'd like me to be. he doesn't want me working hard at all so i just don't. there are more important things i should be contemplating and philosophy should be my only daily routine. it's something he's taught me and i'm an example to him about why you need to be ahead on someone's needs if you want them to be at the same speed. people should agree the lifestyle their relationship is going to share right away. i've always known that but he's showing me transaction is sensual, both partners should be doing this all the time. "she should be in a serene state of mind so i could get a serene state of mind." he's gotta teach me how to be powerful so we are equals. that's true sensuality and there's no absence of love

thank you, no i don't hate feminist art at all or parodies of it. i think the visuals are attractive because I am attracted to women. i'm attracted to Lilith clearly but it is not positive or sapphic. i don't write about it enough but there is a different kind of reality that comes in our intimacy that lesbians wouldn't really understand because it's not based on m/f dynamic. masculinity is a currency between two women seeing each other as equals for once