my favorite kind of restaurants are tea houses but there aren't that many here so i won't say which i go to. i like cake and tea as a lunch or even dinner. my favorite fast food chain is Dos Toros i get the nachos. i haven't found a japanese restaurant here i like here in nyc so i always end up getting up some kind of onigiri from the Japanese market. i love onigiri but i hate the premade ones and the Japanese food and Singaporean food we have is not that good. i bring them up because they're my favorite culture cuisines and NYC does not execute them well at all. it's also morning and i'm hungry

i'm so far behind on where i'd like to be with this dress i'm decorating. it's an old dress from a designer i bought a while ago. the color throws me off, bright mint blue. i did a sumi ink painting on it. i see teeth, stairs, entrails, and demons. it's been lovely to look at hanging on the door but i plan to sew lingerie on top. i work with a lot of lingerie when sewing, lingerie is something i love and find unflattering on it's own. i'm in love with the idea of leather and lingerie and am working on my style lately. it's getting warm

thank you, that's fortunate. paimon loved it and he's a harsh critic. i'm not over that. i posted this and went to bed and had a realization i'm over a type of person completely and have no interest in anything to do with them. i was craving butter popcorn even though i don't even like it. normal bedtime thoughts to me. my eyes where closed and he drew me little bats across my eyes. they were yellow green outlines, made by him. little drawings. it was nice

i have always been around japanese but had little confidence to speak it: 芸術を通してしか「カフグヤ的な体験」をしたことがありません。それが私にとって最初のオカルト体験でした。子供の頃、地獄少女を観たり、丸尾末広や駕籠真太郎の作品を楽しんだりしていました。i am not asian 私は陰陽道を知っています

the anti thesis to the ring around that is.

i'm not in it so i haven't seen it. i know they hate my platform because it doesn't fit their aesthetic for what a website or webmaster should be. i don't want to do pixels anymore except hearts and i hate when a resource page isn't genuine. i don't like that thumbnail i knew none of my friends were in it. we're just not in style for mainstream success on youtube to most young creators. it's whatever

no you're perfectly fine. if there is a show nearby and it's easy to get to i will go. if i'm pulled on to stage i will play. there will be no tours or setlists (do not email me about bookings or touring if you're a DIY artist, ever) that's a party and i like those. for shows i like virtual performance and studied it at an academic level. that's my real passion but if a club or theatre space could cooperate with my "spontaneous mind" i would. this won't ever happen but i prefer intimate shows anyway and am always open to them as a solo artist or for friends

yes. most if not all grindcore sucks i hate it. you bring up a great point about all music streaming platforms. i've never been approved for one because there's a lot of rules and when you learn that you understand music of all genres is marketed the same. i got rejected because my song names had LEET speak and that's it. i'm better off the streaming industry isn't worth it unless you plan on touring forever. i like some artists on Sumerian, kind of. i see what you're saying i know a metal hit when i hear it in terms of charts it's fine. i like pop stars when i was younger. there's no such thing as an online-only genre but the industry is everywhere regardless of genre. metal has little patience and it's suppose to it's visceral and you have to capture that feeling right away. it comes out as a hit otherwise. it is what it is

get more money

yet you're here everytime

you're genuinely doing great. there are no rich people we all share the same pool of money. money is clearly a universal language if we all share it. it's beautiful. it's okay to spend and make money because the point isn't profit it's to travel through the world with a better understanding and itself. i like konbinistop there's all kinds of things i've never even looked at that i can see because it's on the computer which I bought. no one is successful in my eyes some of us are just bad at moving around

i keep getting really violent synchronicities in my own music and others and i know it's about drastic change coming quickly. songs about razor blades, suspicious grindcore, numbness keep coming into play and i'm try to break it up with more art metal and anime because it's very direct and intense but it's just good to know