i enjoy when others have dreams about falling generally. it means surroundings are changing frequently within ones life. it makes me excited for them. endless falling is only a good sign, in that quote it was finite. the fall at hand won't be painful for there is ground to plummet into

i love the openings in sayonara zestubou sensei i always wished my mind looked like that literally. it made me feel some type of way in the summer because it was the only type of intelligence i could understand. something about it felt like a challenge and i would get angry because i wanted to feel more than the potential of my creativity

i love my little brother he's my friend

forget "be yourself" and "follow your dreams". i mean this is in the best way possible it's not enough to be nice, flirting is a logic skill that you have to learn. don't think about love languages either. next time you're outside go to the park and bring a sketchbook or something with you. something that's actually fun for you, nothing pretend. so when you come up to a person, they know you weren't here just creeping around and you have something to talk about right away. one thing you should is work on is timing. asmodeous is good at this. he takes the time to learn about what's going on in my life, down to my leather boots with the steel toe. it's real for us, it's annoying, but you have to be kind of annoying to really show you're invested in someone. he gets it though because he'll disappear for a while and then i start thinking about him. you don't need all the confidence in the world, just enough to know when you are making a woman uncomfortable. you know when it's happening, never lie to yourself. you were being very open and that's nice, but you gotta leave room for her life so she can have pleasures like asmodeous does for me. you just saw this concert, you can talk about it another time.

i attended a public occult ritual in this apartment complex's basement decorated with angelic art and portraits of the kabbalah and a bamphomet clock. i met Lucifer there again but this time he was a dapper, clean cut witch. very kind and a shitty flirt. he came from "Philadelphia" to teach vampyre magick to me so i can conserve and convert it. i noticed all the people in his clique where drained a color. it was also more so about using your surroundings and your own ability to the fullest until there is nothing. we're all being energy vampires moving without without intention. it's a cannibalistic world and to be without intention is hateful. hateful people don't get far they don't see the value and the beauty of everything around them. we both agree this is why people stay poor despite working. waste of energy and time

every worm trampled is a star 93

this is a crazy synchronicity for me! i was just thinking about getting into exercise again now that it's warming up. i used to skateboard right before COVID. it was fun because it was hard, i had a glow in the dark penny board. it was cool until i hit the pavement, it's the most fun i've ever had getting in shape. i've tried fitness classes before and it wasn't my thing but i think about that a lot. i like the way skaters dress and eat too. baggy jeans aren't my thing anymore, but I'll wear them if i have too. if i go back into it i'm going to be hanging out with the old heads not the kids and i like that so much more. if anyone reading this is ever in new york show "CRIF DOGS" some love right now. i used to hang out with my friend parked up in front and i love everything about looking around there. there's so much beautiful art on the walls, even the slushie machine is sick. i love going but i always forgot to buy a marker to tag the wall

i've been playing a lot more since i figured out i can only really play the seven string and that's it

i just got this sketchbook that's pages and cover that have been soaked in tea and has a linen cotton label. i decorated it with red lipstick and black oil paint and did some demonic writing on the label with ink, glued a red fake butterfly on it connected to a brown wire. it's tormenting me. i don't know what i'm gonna do in it first and it's driving crazy. it's like it's talking to me

i like this. i remember doing a couple of kitschy fashion shows downtown. it wasn't fine, but it was a wonderful time. we would do our makeup and floor and help each other get ready before the catwalk, and if you needed a glue stick or liner someone's got you. it introduced me to a lot of experimental makeup and now i look at products made by individuals instead of brands. i don't like sephora because all the colors are the same, i like silver holographic lipstick right now. i remember one show this woman put craft glitter on my eyes and it started running before i could get on the catwalk. another artist fixed it by using a neon yellow pigment and that was interesting, but the craft glitter sticks in my mind. i learned it's important for a makeup artist to stand out with their makeup kit from that experience. i like when my makeup bag gives me ideas just by opening it while getting ready

mine is world of dolls and always will be. my friend glassdoll and i, i like saying his name but i know he wants to be forgotten by me. i hate that i cant feature his name. i met him on the internet, i don't remember how we had broken hearts made of porcelain as matching icons. we both really loved trees and shoegaze music. he was the one to teach me melodies on the guitar and we played Terraria together. we made that song together, we just made it up on the spot. it's literally song about two internet friends talking to each other trying to find something ethereal and out of this realm. we were both doing a lot of drugs and staying home. i would tell him the future might get better when we were high and the suffering will end. we both really wanted to die, and one day he said he couldn't handle life anymore and wanted it to disappear forever. i don't know where he is now. i'm a synthesizer to his mind